yes i know i deserve this.im sorry..
im a bitch myself. im a bad person. shouldnt have done it. now im regretting. u can say what u want and i'll take it. i've been taking in all of it. maybe i've been thinking the wrong way all along. u were my best friend too you know. im really sorry. your secrets are still safe with me. and i know mine is too. im not asking for forgiveness. because i know it's impossible. i wont forgive that bitch if she did that to me. i crossed the line. served me right. i just hope it can go back to when we were happy. im such an idiot. what have i been thinking all this time? i was confused with everything and then i've acted so badly. i know im evil. i've been thinking so much of ur flaws that i've forgotten the good times we've been through. u were there for me when i needed you. i'll try to be nice from now on. maybe we'll be best friends again. laughing and stuff.. well i know it wont happen soon. maybe a year or two? i dont know. i hope so. i made everyone feel dissapointed. feel bad. and i hurt u. i didnt really mean it most of the times. but sometimes i do. sorry. it sounds stupid when i write it out like that. but everything i write here is true. maybe it's my hormones or something. but i wont blame it. i always seem to think like a pessimist. a evil one. and again im sorry. to everyone. everyone i've insulted or hurt before. i'll try to change my attitude. give me some time. i know i can. we may not be as close as before, but just please dont hate me. please? it may take a long time but i still hope we're getting there soon. that's why i've been repeating this so many times. it's stupid of me to apologise like this. no sincerity. but i dont dare to talk to you face to face sometimes. i feel guilty. im really sorry. i've dissapointed you all. im such a bitch.